Reality of Love and Choice....

Have you ever been so sick with the flue that you couldn’t determine what’s real or not real? When you have a fever and the chills and your sweating all at the same time. Where your dreams are intertwined with your reality and you don’t know what’s what. The crazy thing is when that happens ,now hear me out, I think that’s when you go through those experience’s where your soul is trying to show or tell you something. It’s forcing you to see the truth ,your path and where you belong,
I have been through that experience and just before I got sick I had been doing a lot of meditating about my situation. What I should do, what would be the best course of action for everyone involved. Now there are thing’s that you choose to do because you have a choice, obviously and then there are thing’s that you are meant to do. When you have a choice that means you have more then one path to take as to when you are given no choice and the life lesson or the path has been put there so can’t skip it and take another path.
My observation would lead me to believe that love and death are two journey’s that you must take whether you choose it or not. Although love can be overlooked, screened, misleading, dangerous, and avoided if you let your ego rule your heart. It amazes me how much power our ego has over us. Our ego’s can create good and bad emotions depending on our mind set or our will power.
Even though you may think that what you are doing is the right thing ,is it? I mean if you fall in love with someone who is already attached and they fall in love with you, are you wrong, is love wrong? Is it ok to deceive the partner of the person who is with whoever you fell in love with? Should you stay away from them until they resolve or change there situation? Or do you stay and wait and do whatever you can to show them that you truly love them and will be there no matter what?
Even if they hurt you with there indecisiveness and fear of what can be. Do you stand strong and believe that what they are saying is truth because what you are saying is truth. Why would it be better for me to cut ties and walk away and hope that she does what she say’s she will do? I hate being in my head sometimes,it can be so annoying. Bottom line is this I love her and I believe we belong together, so why shouldn’t I wait ?
Maybe she is another messenger sent to me to get me on the right path, to teach me to trust and be patient. Maybe I am here just to give her some strength so she can do what she needs to do and we are not meant to be together. Maybe she just needs me so she can truly feel what real unconditional love is so she can love herself for once unconditionally. My life up until this point has had many disappointments and joys, I don’t have all the answers I don’t want them all ,I just want the people in my life to know what it feels like to be happy with themselves . To have the chance to feel true joy and pure, unconditional love for themselves and from someone else. To feel no fear when it comes to love, to embrace it and no that it is everything and without it ,nothing else matters.
To take that leap and believe in yourself and love is what true happiness is, that’s what I want for the people in my life….TRUE HAPPINESS…