Life's Amazing Surprise's...

Do you believe in reincarnation? Can your soul mate seek you out through space and time and find there way back into your heart and soul? My answer to both of these questions is absolutely, without a doubt. If you are open to the realities of energy , destiny, unconditional love and karma, anything is possible. I know because I found my true love from many past lifetimes and its amazing.

This year has been a year with many lessons and many opportunities to experience so many different levels of love. The love of family and friends as well as romantic love without conditions but for different purposes. Sounds confusing but it isn’t at all once the love in your heart and soul connect and create the clarity we are meant to feel when we love anything.

Love is so simple yet we make it unbelievably complicated. As human beings we tend to let all of the social insanities that we were instilled with from the time we were born until we actually let go and realize that all of the information we were given is a LIE! Lie’s created to instill fear and insecurities ,lies to keep us in line with the illusion that has been created by man so that they can feel powerful and in charge.

The lie that romantic love should only be shared between a man and a women and that if anything other then that transpires ,it is dirty and sinful and an abomination to man kind. Wow, I am so amazed at the ignorance and the fear that is lived and practiced on a minute by minute basis. I have loved so ,many different people for so man different reasons. It took many painful lessons to get me where I am with myself today. Lessons in patience, understanding, selfishness, listening, compassion, true raw honesty, desire, passion, sexuality and of course unconditional love.

My life no longer revolves around other people’s opinion or thoughts on who I am or what I should be. It revolves around how much love and kindness I can give to anyone I come in contact with. True love and understanding of the human condition with out judgment. I am free from the will of the average person, of what is expected of me from the government, religion and society. I am totally and unpredictably full of this wonderful energy that pours out of me whenever I think of anyone I love. Its almost as if I am not really here, like I am more of spirit then human form. It is nothing like I have ever experienced in my life and because I am so open and free ,my path and journey are now exactly as they should be.

This is a story of true enlightenment and the actual ability to create the life and opportunities as you so desire them. Create them through thought and energy ,invite the things into your life you were want and were meant to have. The first step to doing this is letting all of the baggage that has been put into your head and heart and discarding it.
Releasing it even if for a minute. A minute that will change your life, forever.

I had been working at Durgin Park Restaurant for over eight months ,when this couple walked in and sat at my bar. I introduced myself and ask if they wanted a drink and or a menu. “We will take both“, the young woman says with a smile. I say young because she had this naïve feel about her .She was incredibly beautiful but simple, shoulder length blond hair, big blue eyes with a hint of hazel and specs of almond brown in the center. These long eye lashes and perfectly shaped lips that were so inviting, I just wanted to kiss them.

Her smile is what really got my attention though because you knew it was genuine. There was nothing fake about her smile or her persona. She had this amazing truthful, loving energy that poured out with every syllable she spoke. I was intrigued ,I wanted to know more about her, I wanted to know what it was about her that made me feel this urge to touch her. Not really in a sexual way but in any way. As we talked I felt this attraction, this pull ,this want.

So as the night went on and she started to get a buzz, I could feel her relaxing and opening herself up to me.. At the time I had know idea that she wasn’t really a drinker. So I kept putting drinks in front of her every time I made her husband one. I found myself reaching over the bar and getting her attention by touching her hands or her arm. Anything I could just to feel a part of her. It was a strange approach for me but I couldn’t help myself ,for some reason I thought if I felt her skin it would give me an idea of what it was about her that compelled me to just want to know everything about her.

Her husband on the other hand was a character in and out of the box, he had distinguishing grey hair, beautiful blue eyes and was extremely handsome. His personality was very different from his wife. He was loud and obnoxious but not mean or disrespectful. She was quiet and reserved but extremely playful and honest. He was obnoxious in a funny way, I mean I absolutely took to him because of his personality .He reminded me of most of my family. But now that I know him better I understand why I was drawn to him, it was because under that rough, tough bullshit, was this little boy who had been through hell. Through his raspy voice which I’m sure he developed from over indulging in things over the years that were definitely not good for him. I could feel his pain his disappointment in the human connection. There was something familiar about his pain ,I understood it and he didn’t even have to tell me what it was.

We had a connection and to tell you the truth I didn’t realize it till this moment why we had a connection. I felt something between us , an understanding, that only another sexually abused soul can relate to. His wife on the other hand I couldn’t quite put my finger’s on it but there was something very different about our connection. When I looked in her eye’s I saw something so familiar, so inviting but I am a rational being, married woman are definitely off limits.





At this point I was still not free, my perception of reality an society’s rule’s of engagement still were apart of my being. I still lived half and half, what I mean is half of my beliefs were created by my upbringing and the other just by KNOWING. My intuition, my feelings, my understanding of people. I had developed the ability to feel whatever anyone I came in contact with was feeling, especially if we talked for more then five minutes. It was so exhausting at times but usually it helped me to learn about myself and why I did or reacted to things the way I did.

Throughout the night I listened to stories about the couples adventures and sexual freedom’s they had experienced with each other. Her husband explained how they had traveled to Amsterdam and she gave him permission to pick out a women for them to experiment with. Apparently prostitution is legal there. As I listened to him I could hear and feel the excitement he felt during the process of deciding which female they would pay for to take home with them. His energy was very distinct he acted as if he were a little boy deciding what ice cream flavor he wanted for desert.